Something I’ve been pondering over the last few weeks, and which I find myself talking more about is the love and goodness of God. More specifically, how I’m recognizing and experiencing the love and goodness of God through my journey. People have told me that what I’m doing with my life and how committed I am to this kind of work is amazing. They comment on the sacrifices I’ve made in order to do this great work. At times, I didn’t know how to respond to these praises and comments. Usually I’ve said something about living the live I’ve been given to live, and being true to myself and who I have been created to be, and hopefully inspiring them to do the same.
Recently, I’ve been saying something that builds on that, and it brings perspective on God’s love in our lives. I do what I do because it is a working out of who I’ve been created to be. I’m created out of God’s love. It is not necessarily a matter of following a calling or vocation of doing so much as it is allowing God to love you and love through you. Right now, God loves me enough to entrust me with this current work in medical education and reaching out to prostituted and trafficked people. But my passion (at least I try) is for God and his love first. In the future if God chooses to love me by bringing me to a different place, doing a different thing, that is how he will show his love and goodness to me and I will accept his love (how I will do that is up to me). We are created beings first and our vocation flows out of who we are. Even if the work changes, you are still you, allowing God to love you however he chooses at that time of your life.
I think that many people are afraid to let God love them as much as God wants to! Many are afraid to let go to his radical love and see what really happens in their lives. Not easy! Although now I recognize his goodness woven throughout my life, I feel like I’m only beginning to live that in the present. To be honest, it can be scary following God, because sometimes this life gets really really hard, and I know that there will be more trials ahead. It is not always easy and not always pleasant. The way to the cross in following Jesus will always get harder. But his love and goodness are always present and there will be even sweeter times ahead!